It's my life ....: July 2010

I just realized my posts went from camping to baby and I totally left out stuff that happened in June.
I got the matching wedding band to my ring. I love it and wear them all the time now.

Delilah got her hair cut (by me) and that saved money for her to get a new dress. :)

I wanted to capture my feelings of utter panic and apprehension before I went to take my nursing board exam on June 14. SO glad that is over!

Here I am, 30 hours later, calling my family to tell them I AM A RN FINALLY!

I was at work when I found out I passed the boards. I had been checking the website for results about every half hour since I finished my exam. Yes, very ridiculous, but I couldn't help it!

It was the end of the shift and I was exhausted with anxiety. Then the results popped up on my screen (love the droid internet access!). Immediately the room began to spin and I lost all the air in my body. My coworkers cheered me on as I gasped, "Oh, MY GOD! It's over! I'm a RN!" When the feeling came back to my legs, I walked outside to call my husband and cry. You'd think I was waiting to find out if I had cancer or not. I am NOT a fan of anticipation. I can't even watch t.v. or movies that have suspense. It physically hurts me.

In perfect timing, my shift was over and I raced home so we could go out and celebrate! Shrimp lettuce wraps and a martini! It was an awesome moment in time. I couldn't stop smiling.

Here I am at the Cheesecake Factory after taking the exam. I put on my pearls and I tried to drown my anxiety in cheesecake and a martini. I had a horrible feeling that I had failed. It was not a fun time but I tried to think positive.

It has been so fun at work, signing RN after my name. Coworkers have been so great, supportive and excited for me.

At the end of this exciting week, my neice was born. I became a RN and my brother became a DAD on the same week. Long-awaited dreams come true for both of us. His dream will cost him money, my dream makes me money. But we can share, like good siblings do!

Just had to mention what happened...back in June.

Clutter.

Some may feel ashamed of such exposure but I do not!

We all have dirty little areas like these (I think, I hope!).

I'm not afraid to show it.

My desire to have these areas of my home to be purged and organized rises above any feelings of shame that these areas actually exist.

Don't get me wrong, my house is mostly CLEAN, but organized and tidy....not so much.
I am just not that kind of person who is overly motivated to keep the perfect house. Couple that with my addiction to shopping and surfing the internet....thus the following evidence.

BUT!

My desire to feel proud and accomplished is deep and needy. I want to feel peace and order when I gaze about my home. And now that : 1)I am out of nursing school (automatic more time, less stress) 2)it's too hot outside to go do anything 3)we want to simplify our lifes so we can travel more....I have more than enough motivation to get some things done!

Halfway through my cup of coffee this morning, I grabbed my camera and took pics of the areas in my house that need purging and returned to their originally intended purposes.

This is what has become of my lovely office table. I don't even really use my "office". I used it some during nursing school. We spend all of our time in the living room. I have "my" chair and my laptop fits nicely on the arm of the big stuffed chair. That's all I need as an "office" these days. What do people do in their offices? Please, tell me. Maybe I'm missing out on some pertinent "office" activities.

Can you tell this cool basket was ment to hold remote controls ? Sort of ?? Shoot, you can't even tell the basket is really cool! :(

This is a shelf in my closet. It's not the most usable space but it's where I stuff items I just don't want to deal with at the moment. If it was clear, the closet would look alot better. I enjoy an organized closet. I've always separated clothes ....long sleeve from short sleeve....dresses from skirts....scrubs have their own section...ect. I MUST have an organized closet! So this shelf is an eyesore.

This is on top of the dresser next to my side of the bed. It's actually out of my view since the dresser is really high. I had to take this pic to really see what was going on up there. It's the closest thing I have to a bedside table so it collects stuff...earplugs, sleep mask, water bottles. It's the only clutter in the room (besides the baskets of clothes awaiting to be hung up in the closet).

This is in my office. Most of this stuff I need to store in the closet or give away. Most of it is stuff from nursing school.

Before you get all excited...this is INSIDE the green cabinet in the dining room. Can you say "catch-all"? There's some really good, important stuff in there. Just don't know where else to put it. This is a project for sure.

This IS sad. This shelf sits right in the entry way of the front door. It's been like this for a long time. Another catch-all area. I can't blame this on anyone but myself. Brian never uses the front door. I'm starting to think we need to have company over more often so I can keep on top of this stuff! Sunscreen, alcohol swabs, dog dress and CD's??? Those are all my hats. I have no idea where else to put them. I love my hats and use them all the time. They may just have to stay there.

Under the living room table. I never touch this stuff except Delilah gets a Cheerio treat sometimes.

I am motivated even more now. I will post new pics after I clean up these areas. Actually, I had one area, the electronics area, cluttered with CD's (even though we have a lovely wood CD cabinet for that!) that I was going to photograph but I ended up cleaning it right away! Dusted, CD's put away. Looks great now. See, I've already started! It feels good already.

Should I have a goal for when this all should be done? Oh, that's asking a bit too much for me right now. I'm not THAT intense! (I wanted to write anal but that's such a rude word).

I'm not too worried. I know myself and that I will get this done ASAP.

Come back in a few days and see my results!

7.13.2010

More about Ruthie

This face just cracks me up.

July 5th we went for a stroll at the capitol in Sacramento. Luke and Liliya looking so cute.

I got the honor of going to Ruthie's 2 week doctor's appointment. She looks so much like Luke in this photo. She gained 2 pounds in 2 weeks! That's alot of milk and diapers, let me tell ya! Liliya and I got to spend lots of time together and I will forever cherish that opportunity. I get tears in my eyes just writing this. Liliya is a precious and tender person. Plus, she let me hold Ruthie as much as I wanted....and that was ALOT. Thank you, Liliya! You are my sister!

This is our very first photo together. Taken about 5 minutes after I walked in their house. I am so blessed to have a job and an understanding husband that I can just take a week off from and go be with my brother during this special time. Liliya took this photo on the first try. Isn't it perfect? And I'm very particular about how pictures should look. Looks like we could be at a portrait studio.

I thought I was going to miss my husband terribly while I was gone for 5 days but this little baby filled that void. It's great to be home but now I miss the baby terribly! Baby fills husband void but apparently, husband cannot fill baby void. :(